8:16 AM: I guess I have a love/hate relationship with conflict. Today Carol Tuttle posted something in the Type 2 group on facebook. I reacted very strongly to it and posted that. In my response, I revealed my Type 4 nature, either secondary or primary (not sure). I wasn't questioning her point or her passion, just defending my hurt sense from her delivery. As a 2 or a 4, maybe I have difficulty with 3 energy. It's so not me. (And maybe more like my mom?).
I have felt a surge of hope by being in the Type 2 group on facebook - hope that I found somewhere I belong. Carol even told me that maybe I'm a 4. So the ultimate feeling that I don't belong anywhere I think I do was unfortunately a bit confirmed, alas. Wow, I'm going to need to take the day away from this.
5:10 PM: Ok, I guess I'm over it. But it sure does have me thinking. This whole process has me in confusion. I think I need to be careful to not take this so seriously. There are many systems to look at your self with and this isjust one, a young one at that. I even think it's a little dangerous that it's a fashion system trying to accomplish some therapy goals outside of that context. I know it stirs up a lot of feelings. And today they weren't safe ones. But it's getting better.
As for whether I'm a 2 or a 4, it occurs to me that I don't have to quickly decide that. I believe actually in many ways I'm both. I'm not denying myself unless I force picking one. I actually thought I was a 4 by my personality but was convinced I'm a 2 by my facial profiling. And then Carol on very quick analysis said she saw mostly 4. Exhale.
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